Tuesday, April 3, 2012

recognition

We all want to be recognized for our talents, whatever they may be. Recognition can come in many forms, and it often becomes more about our own acceptance than it is about validation from another source.

Last week, my ten-year-old saxophone student revealed to me during his lesson that he did not make it into the advanced band at his school. He was very upset, which is understandable, but the comments he made regarding this disappointment were so negative—even to the point of making mild threats toward his teacher—that I had to remind him that being positive will yield better results. I didn’t tell him all the reasons I thought he probably did not get promoted to the highest level. There are at least a few. Instead, I tried to explain to him that there are many factors that go into a band director’s decisions regarding placement in different band levels. I even suggested that perhaps the director thought he would be a good motivator for his intermediate band peers, and kept him from the advanced band for that reason. When my student grumbled that he wouldn’t play in intermediate band—it was advanced band or nothing—I used an anecdote from my own youth to explain why it might be a great opportunity for him to accept the position in that band and continue to grow as a music student. After several attempts at making him see all the possible sides to the equation, he was less frustrated, but he still fell back on his claim that his teacher “always hated him.” With this comment and his attitude toward the whole issue, I offered that perhaps his negativity was something the teacher saw as a reason to keep him in a developing band. I told him that if he worked hard and kept a positive attitude, then perhaps he would prove to the band director that he was ready for the advanced band. Besides, I reminded him, when he gets to seventh grade, he’ll have a different band director, and that may put him in a better match for a teacher-student relationship. My student did soften a bit by the end of our conversation, and during the lesson, he took my constructive criticism to heart. He’s got a long way to go, but he has improved so much already, and I reminded him of all the evidence of this.

What is it that we seek as a symbol of recognition for our talents? Is it awards? Public mention? Publication of our writing? Sales of our products? Shows in galleries or performance venues? Or even just a thumbs-up on Facebook? I find that I haven’t been putting myself out there enough recently to receive the recognition I feel I am due. So, I can’t complain. But with a short story recently being published, and more opportunities in which to play my saxophone, I do receive the encouragement to continue doing what I do. What I should be taking from these validating events is a motivating nudge to push myself harder toward my goals. I’m hoping to make this happen soon.

For my saxophone student, it may be several years before he understands that it takes more than just showing up with an instrument in his hands to prove his eagerness to succeed. But I hope I can help him to continue to grow and get closer to the recognition he seeks. Whatever that may be.

Sunday, February 12, 2012

New Experiences

The age of ten was very full of big and new experiences for me. I began going through puberty at this age, already taller than all the boys and most of the girls. I broke my leg, which was thankfully the second and last bone I broke (knock on wood), and had to spend most of the summer in a cast up to my hip. It became apparent that I had inherited my mother’s skin—specifically psoriasis—and I began the struggle of controlling a frustrating skin condition. And I began to play the saxophone.

I had always wanted to be like my sister, and so I had chosen clarinet initially as the band instrument I would play. But Vanessa, in her young wisdom, had convinced me that it would be better to have my own instrument—something that went well with clarinet. She chose the saxophone for me. I was good at the instrument from the start, picking it up rather quickly and excelling immediately. But as far as specifics, besides a few songs that will forever stick in my head as honking and percussive melodies that most likely ruined anyone’s love for the tunes (Beautiful Brown Eyes being one), I cannot remember exactly how I learned the basics. I can deduce from flipping through method books at the music publisher’s office where I work as an editor that there was a common pedagogy to the whole thing. But I can’t put myself back in that spot and remember what it was like to be a new saxophone student.

I didn’t take lessons until I was in high school, when my parents were convinced this was a path I would travel on for many years to come. I only practiced by myself at home the allotted 30 minutes per day, working on songs and scales, and I played in band class every day. Eventually, after elementary school, junior high, high school, and college concert and jazz bands, I received my degree in music composition. I have played in dozens of bands since the age of ten. I continue to play gigs pretty regularly now at the age of 38.

It had been years since I had taught any private lessons when a friend referred someone to me as a teacher. The timing was right, in that I needed the extra cash, I was working with concert band pedagogy and method books constantly at work, and the prospective student lived less than a mile away from my home. I wasn’t really prepared, however. I stumbled when asked how much I charge, although I had rehearsed the conversation beforehand, and I ended up changing my price later anyway. I was a little disappointed to find that the student was using a method book that my employer did not publish, since those were the series with which I was familiar and to which I could refer if necessary. But I was determined to make this a good experience for the student and for myself.

My student is a ten-year-old beginning band student playing alto saxophone. He is headstrong, often overconfident, and eager, but he is also very easily distracted. I could tell this from the first meeting, but I was encouraged by the fact that he had already taken drum set lessons. After learning that he had not yet been taught how to read music, as his lessons only included playing by ear, I realized that I would have to take his familiarity with rhythms and apply the tones and fingerings necessary to playing a wind instrument. I knew this would be a challenge for him, but I was up for helping him through it.

Now that we have been meeting for months, I am beginning to find what does and doesn’t work for his learning process. He is very much aware that everyone does not learn the same, which is a good thing. But I have been set back by unexpected obstacles.

Although he has drumming experience, he has trouble with staying on beat. This was not so apparent when I would clap my hand against my leg as he played, because I could be wavering in my own pulse, possibly because of his varying tempo. But when I suggested to his mother that she buy him a metronome for use on his own, and we tried employing it within the lessons, I realized there is a disconnect somewhere here. I asked him to practice only playing one pitch—quarter notes initially, then moving on to half notes, whole notes, and possibly even eighth notes. When we tried this it was satisfactory. But when he tried to read music along with a metronome, there was no regard for the tempo. He suddenly failed to hear or see the pulses as the machine clicked and flashed. I realize that this is a common issue with beginning musicians, but I was surprised by its presence in a child who had already learned to play drums.

Another issue that has given me much to think about is that my student is very easily distracted and quick to lose attention. I had realized this early on, but because of his insistence on taking on large tasks in each lesson, I moved forward while trying to take notes on what I could do to work around this. I have decided that we need to take breaks often. Sometimes, when he gets completely off track, he plays something totally different from what’s on the page. It will be subtle at first—he’ll miss a rhythm but keep going, then he stumbles on the notes. Other times, however, he’ll just keep on playing for measures and measures, but the rhythms and notes will be nowhere near what is written on the page. It’s as if he’s daydreaming in improvisation. I have to reel him back in, ask him questions about the baseball trophies he has, taking a minute or two to clear his mind before continuing on with the song. I have realized that this point arrives sooner than I would hope within the lesson, so now I know I must find a way to work on concepts and songs in even smaller chunks than we have been already. Like the television and computers that rule his life, I have to give him only flashes of information.

One thing I have discovered that is pretty impressive about my student is that he has an amazing ear for mimicking others. I had realized early on that he was memorizing what he heard others playing, rather than reading the actual notes and rhythms on the page. But I figured he was applying both the listening skills he already had and the reading skills that were new to him. When I decided to try something fun in between the monotonous and grueling playing of concert songs, I offered that he should mimic what I played, but without being able to see my fingers. After a fumbling first attempt—starting on the right note, but getting tripped up a couple of times before repeating the entire phrase—he nailed every single pattern I gave him. I started on different notes, I played different rhythms, and I mixed up arpeggios with scale patterns. He nailed every one. I was amazed. Although I knew that he had learned the drums by ear, I was thoroughly impressed that he was applying pitches and fingerings to this exercise without any effort. I plan to use this sort of exercise much more in the future, ramping up the difficulty and testing him further each time.

It has been no surprise to me that the process of teaching fascinates me. This has always been true. But I had been afraid for years to attempt to teach students, for fear I would have not enough to offer them in order to propel their talents forward. Because I took the challenge on this one student, I have been really enjoying the experience—one in which I am both teaching and learning. I hope that this continues for a long time to come, and that I can possibly add more students to my lesson schedule.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

New Slate

The new year offers us a clean slate. We have an opportunity to try again. To start over. To get it right this time. It's an illusion, really. A placebo. But if it motivates us, then it serves its purpose.

I am skeptical of new year's resolutions as much as the next person. But I also know that making lists always helps me actually accomplish my goals. If it's written down, then it's out there, and not just in my head. If there's a possibility that someone else sees or hears my list, then it kicks me in the butt to truly get things done.

So, here goes:

1. I resolve to get in better shape (especially my "core," which will strengthen my back and get my tummy back to its old, flat self). This means doing more than only playing the three or so soccer games per week, and taking the daily-ish walks. I lost all the weight I gained last year, but I have a few more pounds to go to reach my goal. However, it is more important to me that I am fit and feel my healthiest.

2. I resolve to finish a solid, complete draft of A Stealer's Hands. This novel has been lingering in an incomplete post-first draft for quite a while, and the story needs to be completed. Yes, there are other short stories and novels out there to be finished (and I resolve to also continue putting those on paper, no matter whether or not they are to go further right away), but this one needs to get there this year. It's so close...

3. I resolve to learn how to use my sewing machine and my soldering iron, and to begin using them in my jewelry and other crafts. This will open up my creativity and relieve me of any guilt I have been feeling for purchasing items I never use.

4. I resolve to get rid of half of what I own. Much of my stuff is merely taking up space. If I clear it out, then I will be more motivated to maintain a simple lifestyle. I will also be more easily able to move into a new apartment, if that is indeed a possibility. A fresh start in a new place has been on my mind for quite a while. This clearing of stuff may include turning old clothing and other items into creative pieces (and may make use of my aforementioned sewing machine and soldering iron).

5. I resolve, as always, to make more creative use of my time. This year, this also means avoiding the temptations to use the Internet and my new myTouch phone when there are more creative and/or productive things I could be doing.

What are your new year's resolutions? Are there new ones? Or do you make the same resolutions every year? How do you feel about this tradition? I'm curious. :)

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Curator as Creator

Recently, I've enjoyed acting as a curator of treasuries on Etsy, and it makes me think of the creative process involved. I've received several compliments on my aesthetic eye because of these treasuries, and I like to think that I am creating on a different level from the usual music, writing, or crafting. Yet, like my jewelry, I'm taking materials that already exist and patching them together with other materials to create a new piece. I'd love to be a silversmith, or a seamstress, or someone who fabricates the pieces completely from raw materials, but at this point I'm not. Yet I do truly enjoy the process of my crafting. And I really enjoy the curation of Etsy treasuries.

In most of my treasuries, I try to develop a theme from one of my own listings. This way, I can showcase my work along that of other sellers. Usually, I'll choose a piece that has an exceptional main photo, so the item pops, and so it is easily categorized with other attractive images of listings. Sometimes, I'll create a treasury without my own work in it. It's the only way Etsy will choose it to be on their front page, and I am sometimes inspired to gather items of which I have no examples.

I'm pretty happy with most of my treasuries, and I love sharing them. I am hopeful that others enjoy them, as well.

Here are some examples that include my own listings:

http://www.etsy.com/treasury/4c34bb57b2d96d91153738cd/turquoise-again
http://www.etsy.com/treasury/4c2cdfbcb3ad8eef34c029d5/green-is-gold-all-over-again
http://www.etsy.com/treasury/4c259012e8a08eefe963aa86/fishing-for-gold

And here are some examples that do not include my own listings:

http://www.etsy.com/treasury/4c364502cc446d91c593875f/a-writers-life
http://www.etsy.com/treasury/4c2e5033f7978eefc518f6a7/american-independence

Anyone can create treasuries on Etsy, and I recommend it! And while you're there, check out my listings, and all the other fabulous handmade and vintage items that Etsy has on display. :)

Monday, May 31, 2010

In between the good stuff

Man, it's been a while since I last blogged. And as I sit down to do some serious writing again in my novel-in-progress, A Stealer's Hands, I think it's time to get some ideas out there again.

I've been re-reading much of my work with Reiki, and there are some moments in this story that I think are brilliant. But there are also moments that are completely uninteresting. If they are uninteresting to me, how in the world will they interest a reader? So, it is on these in-between sections that I have determined I need to focus.

One yucky section in particular is the point at which Reiki and her two new roommates sit down and get to know each other. It happens at page 24, although Reiki has already met Ginger on page 14, and talks to Kyle on the phone on page 21. The meeting of all three feels forced, because it's an awkward trio and a mundane task. What they share is important, but the fact that it's over a pizza dinner in celebration of getting everything moved in... not so much. I believe that my beginning is strong, and what is so far the ending is strong. And there is a long building section to the end that is almost non-stop good stuff. But I did realize in re-reading it over this weekend that it is all good because I skipped over the gaps where uninteresting things would happen (which I hadn't done earlier on in the story).

This last thought poses a question: How long is too long a gap between scenes in a novel? And if there is a gap, should narrative take place to lead the reader to the next section?

Another issue I am having is that Reiki's love interest enters the story later than is recommended by the "experts" for main characters to first appear. Finn is there, in passing (Reiki walks past him and/or his shop on pages 3 and 13, and there are mysterious references to him on pages 11 and 55), and in her friendship with his great-grandfather, but she doesn't actually meet him until page page 72, which may get bumped further out when next drafts reveal themselves.

Perhaps it's too early and I'm working on too rough of a draft to get tied up in some of this stuff, but I worry that I'll lose track of it, if I don't address it now. I guess it's time to just make note of these issues for later woodshedding, and crank out some pages to move ahead.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

The End

I have trouble with endings. When I begin writing a story, I do not necessarily know how it will end. Some people have told me that this is not a good way to write, but I find that it works best for me to write one "day in the life" section at a time. I have explained when I am defending my random order concept (instead of writing in chronological order) by pointing out that my writing style works as if I am meeting my characters and find out a little bit about them at a time, from different parts of their lives.

But when it comes to finishing a story, I often get stuck. Even if I know what the culminating event is, the denouement is still difficult to put on paper. It was most apparent to me when I was trying to bring a semi-autobiographical novel (my longest yet) to a close. I figured it was because I could not end my own life story, and so I didn't know how to end the story of such an autobiographical character. But the truth is I have this issue with every piece I write. The shorter the story, the easier it is to leave open-ended, so I often use a non-ending in those cases. But it feels like a cheap trick when writing longer and more in-depth stories.

I'm curious if there are exercises for this, or if there is a way that I can work through this issue. I don't necessarily see dynamic endings in those novels that I read, so I know that it is not a matter of going out with a bang. But those authors do seem to at least satisfy the reader with a finish of some sort. In fact, I'm not even sure that my endings are particularly unsatisfactory. I just know that I struggle and wonder if I have indeed finished the stories. Most of the input I have received on my writing has been about beginnings and broader concepts.

Case in point, I have a few really strong stories that I would like to submit to literary magazines, but I worry that my endings will weigh the judges' decisions against my work. I know that if I had more time to practice and just get words down, then I would have more confidence in this area. But the fact is I don't have time even to do the things that I do from day to day.

But no excuses. I hope to tackle this dilemma with regular writing practice. Perhaps I'll write endings first. Last sentence before the rest of the story. That just might do it...

Saturday, August 22, 2009

a place to share

I've finally decided to start a blog, apart from all the networking sites, in order to share with others the process of my creations. I intend to write about each of my crafts: writing, music, and making jewelry. I am hopeful that this blog will be as revealing to myself as it is to others about what goes into each creation.





Currently, aside from doing some recording at work for Kjos, I am seeking the opportunity to play my saxophone more often. I have been communicating with someone about the possibility of helping complete a '30s and '40s band, and I'm excited about seeing where this can lead. Someday, I will also get back to recording my own music, when I have a moment to try to sort out my "home studio." Time seems to be the missing link for most of my creativity.


I have not been as productive with my writing as I had hoped recently. Other than doing some random editing for a friend, and contributing as much as possible to Kjos editorial projects, I have only been rereading and revising my novel-in-progress called A Stealer's Hands. I'm very excited about this story about Reiki Lee, but I seem to be in a rut when I try to think of how to write all those missing in-between sections.

The most successful of my creative ventures recently has been the one in the most beginning of stages. Only about five months ago, I started creating jewelry and other handmade items, using mostly upcycled, recycled, and repurposed materials. I've been listing these pieces on Etsy at http://shannonbatescreates.etsy.com/, and it seems to be going pretty well, especially for not having done this sort of thing for very long. Here are some samples of my work:















Please feel free to comment on my blogs now and in the future. I would love to have some feedback from others in the process of sharing creativity.


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